14/12/2012

FACE IT

Living in the community, we can't expect people to live up to our expectations. Macam yang pernah saya cakap sebelum ni, having expectations is always okay until you have to face the truth, which is rather disappointing. For example, no matter how kind you are towards them, it won't guarantee anything. Sikit pun tak. Because we, people can be cruel sometimes :|
I've lost my wallet earlier this year. My handphone has been stolen back in July. Plus, burglars broke into my house during the raya festive few months ago. Money, briefcase, camera, etc went missing*sigh.
Apa2 pun, I'm not going to blame them lah kot, sebab hmm. Entah lah. Mana lah tahu kan, diorg tu actually modern day Robin Hood yang curik orang punya belonging pastu kasi dekat orang yang kurang berkemampuan ke apa ke kan. Well, we will never knowww

08/11/2012

BEING CLOSE

I was taking my hot shower when suddenly the nozzle made a very weird, distracting sound. I thought I'd be dead at that particular moment and yeah, it wasn't funny at all. It wasn't funny at all.

Okay, enough.
I didn't plan to write at first but the rising snatching cases during the last few days which is causing chaos over here moved me to write. I'm a bit intimidated, really. Being close to someone will actually put me in fear; fear of seeing that someone gets hurt either physically or mentally. In other words, fear of not being able to protect that someone from harm. It's more like a chain reaction in which I'll suffer every time that someone gets hurt. But I don't mind to share the pain, actually. It's just that everything would be better if I can protect and lead that someone out of harm's way or AT LEAST make that someone feels safe around me. This is a bit upsetting but still, I'm going to do my best once that someone appears in my life someday.

23/10/2012

BECAUSE YOU ARE PRICELESS :)

price·less

/ˈprīsləs/
Adjective
- So precious that its value cannot be determined.
- Used to express great and usually affectionate amusement.

Should I or should not I treat you the way it was when everything went just fine between us? Should I or should not I care about you the way I did before? Should I or should not I forget everything in the past and start from scratch? On top of that, should both of us stay as strangers just like the way I wanted to? Because sometimes, I do regret that decision, the one I made when I was not in my right mind at all. I've been thinking about these things lately. Sorting out my feeling wasn't the easiest thing to do, but I think I've made it through.
Let's stop being just strangers, because I realised that it was the worst decision that I've ever made.  So I'm going to be a friend who cares for you till the very end. I'm going to be a friend who will stick with you through whatever and break your fall if you want me to. Yes, I'm going to give you that much, because you and your kind of friendship are too precious to me :)

07/10/2012

ANNOYED, EH?

Sebab sy nak acknowledge those who are real and those who aren't, saya sengaja jadik annoying and buat dyorg rasa annoyed. So far, everything's okay. Tapi, I know sooner or later mesti ada punya yang akan rasa menyampah nanti, tapi takpe lah. It's a normal thing lah kot. At least, those who are real will stay, and those who aren't will go. Those real people will cherish and those who aren't will ignore. Cuma, saya rasa mcm takut sikit sebab, there are these people yang saya betul2 harap takkan rasa menyampah sikit pun dengan saya hmmm. Kena tunggu dan lihat je nanti mcm mana outcome dia :|

27/09/2012

IT'S OK TO BE AWAY

17th Sept 2012. Happy Belated Birthday, to me.

Dear god, thanks for another year. Everything was beautiful, and I hope things will keep getting more and more beautiful. Thanks for allowing me to have these wonderful people around me. Thanks for the tears, thanks for the joys. Thanks for the hardships as well as all the blessings. Dear god, I know it's a little bit too late for a birthday wish, but may I have one? Please, protect these wonderful people around me, regardless who they are and please, protect this one stranger who I care the most, from any harm.

Yang sedihnya, birthday tahun ni celebrate jauh dari Malaysia, sorang2 je dalam bilik. Semua orang taktau. Kbai.

20/08/2012

WELCOME BACK SYAWAL :D

Hai hai, Selamat Hari Raya :)
I know it's a little too late, tapi nak jugak berpantun sikit. Hihik.


Anak kucing makan ikan,
Ikan masin x terperi,
Salah silap harap dimaafkan,
Semoga brgembira di Aidilfitri! 

Labah-labah pergi bersiar,
Bersiar seorang diri saje, 
Esok tiba hari raya,
Tutti frutti bila nak belanja?

Enak sungguh tutti frutti,
Tak sabar ada org nk belanja nanti.


Tahun lepas punya pantun -.- Saya curi pantun orang ni sebenarnya, sorry. Tapi takpe lah kot, haritu masa raya pertama dah mintak maaf hihi -.- Eh tapi pantun last tu mcm takde kaitan pun dengan hari raya O.o

Btw, raya ni kan rasa takde semangat je. Taktau kenapa hmmm ._. Tapi kalau semangat sikit pun masa dapat duit raya je hehe.

Sy ni mmg gila sikit dengan purple. Silakan menyampah -.-

Okbyee :)

15/08/2012

HOPE AND REALITY

hope Pronunciation: /həʊp/
  • a feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen

reality Pronunciation: /rɪˈalɪti/
  • the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them
*definition from oxforddictionaries.com.

Well, hope is actually a sort of expectation and it's not wrong at all for all of us to have expectations. Having expectations is always okay until you have to face reality.

The thing is, reality can be painful sometimes. It makes our hopes seem so unrealistic and pointless. That's why those who have high expectations will most likely suffer more compared to those who don't. Well, that's what life really is. You can't escape that. You just can't.

I was one of them. I did hope for something unrealistic because I thought it was okay to do so. Because I was so stupid. Because I was so stubborn. Everything seemed so real until the painful reality dragged me down. It didn't happen once and it didn't happen twice either. It happened so many times. Yet, I can't seem to stop from having expectation because it's not my choice but my heart's. I don't really mind because I know I'm going to get hurt in the end anyway.

In conclusion, hope and reality can never be separated, am I right? :)

14/08/2012

FACTS ABOUT ME - PART III


Trust me or not, I'm doing this again because I have too much time to be wasted -.-


#101. I'm going to skip fact #100 and save it for later.
#102. I tend to get depressed easily if I don't get enough sleep.
#103. Surprisingly, I am not addicted to computer games anymore.
#104. My general knowledge is really bad. If I were sitting for general knowledge test, I'd probably score below than 20 or maybe 10 out of 100
#105. My head will get itchy whenever I eat spicy food.
#106. I do act childish sometimes and I hate it.
#107. I can always make time for those who are dear to me
#108. I'm not easy to get along with.
#109. I hate ginger. It tastes like yuck D:
#110. I prefer to tuck my shoelaces inside the socks or shoes instead of tying them.
#111. I enjoy the smell of gasoline.
#112. When I was a kid, the theme song from the movie X-Files really freaked me out. Until now, the song still brings chill down my spine
#113. I can lick my left elbow but not my right one. I don't know how to explain this.
#114. I love talking about human relationship. But then, I always end up listening most of the time instead of talking about it.
#115. I prefer shopping alone rather than going with my dad because I won't get to buy things I want whenever he's around
#116. I've stopped my bad habit of biting straws since it's pretty disgusting.
#117. I can now play guitar after two weeks of practice and I love it
#118. Since my parents do not allow me to buy or even play guitar, my friend lend me one and I have it hidden inside my closet. I can only play whenever they're not around, but that's more than enough I guess. Hehe.
#119. I'm a bad son for sure. Sorry mom, sorry dad.
#120. I hate taking medicine whenever I fall sick.
#121. I can be friendly to anyone if I put my mind to it.
#122. I don't usually greet others first and wait for them to make the first move instead since I'm afraid that they might feel annoyed and uncomfortable.
#123. I've never suffered muscle cramp in my entire life.
#124. I prefer not to comb my hair and leave them messy instead.
#125. I like to play with my hair. They are soft and silk. pfft.
#126. I've never ridden a roller coaster before.
#127. I still don't understand the exact reason why lovers fight and hurt each other. Is it that hard to actually maintain a good relationship and love each other without the need to hurt back? Can't they just forgive and forget?
#128. I wanna visit Paris so badly.
#129. I hate Justin Bieber, not because of his personality or songs, but hmm. Nevermind -.-"
#130. I'm not afraid of the dark.
#131. I've began to adore Selena when I saw her as the main character in the movie Another Cinderella Story two years ago.
#132. I am fat. Nope
#133. I am getting fatter as time passes by. Nope
#134. I don't like McD's Apple Pie.
#135. I've never proposed to anyone before largely because I am too afraid of being rejected.
#136. I have a close relationship with vampire since I usually sleep during the day and stay awake at night
#137. I have a huge collection of Selena's photos kept inside a folder on my laptop. Hehe.
#138. I'm not comfortable being in public because I feel like everybody's staring at me. It's dejecting somehow.
#139. Being able to cheer up those who are in pain makes me feel contented.
#140. I can be overprotective and I know it's annoying. It's just that I hate seeing those who are dear to me get hurt.
#141. I can't tolerate those who spread chained messages. If the messages were real, I'd be long dead by now
#142. I've been rooting for Chelsea since 2006.
#143. I always have unrealistic and high expectations.
#144. Honestly, I hate getting myself a haircut but at the same time, I don't like having long hair :|
#145. I've never been to Burger King, Nando's, Wendy's and Subway*sobbing
#146. I know this is a bit disgusting but I could blow bubbles off my tongue.
#147. I can even squirt saliva from underneath my tongue. I mean, sometimes.
#148. I have dimples.
#149. I trust people around me too easily.
#150. I can't stand the cold.

Yeay, done with the facts. Need some sleep now, night!

07/08/2012

I WISH IT WASN'T REAL



It's typical Tuesday, I guess. Except that I haven't slept since yesterday. Am I being abnormal? I wish I could just fall asleep right after I lay myself in my bed, which I know won't be happening that way. I know clearly what's going to happen if I try to sleep. Random thoughts will suddenly pop up out of nowhere, keeping me busy enough from falling asleep. This overthinking stuff is really tiring T.T

Anyway, I was involved in a road accident few days ago with this one fellow motorcyclist. It was kinda bad, but you should know that I'm just perfectly fine since I am now sitting here in my room, blogging early in the morning.

I suddenly realized few things after the accident, which are;

i) I am selfish
ii) I can't think clearly whenever I'm nervous
iii) I'm easy to be cheated


Clearly, I was feeling kinda low to actually realize that I can be selfish, sometimes. Should I actually tell this? As soon after the crash, the first thing that came across my mind was "how's my car's condition? is it bad?" instead of "How is that guy's condition? is he okay?". That was a total crap, you know. What on earth was going on with me? I don't know why, maybe I was just too nervous and afraid that my dad will find out and throw tantrums even though it was clearly not my fault. It was totally that guy's fault. So that's when I decided to keep my mouth shut. Luckily he was fine, so we settled down quietly and nicely even though that guy cheated me by asking few extra bucks for the compensation. Yet, I still let him off that time since my feelings were all mixed up, thinking how cruel I can be, putting myself first while having less concern about others who are in pain :|


So everything's written up there. I must get rid of them as soon as I can. This is not as easy as handling bad habits, but I'll still try. I have to.

I'm done here. I need my sleep.

01/08/2012

AUGUST FOOL?

Please tell me that you were just kidding, Mark

When I first saw this on the very top of the page, I was like,
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA T______T

Well, I bet Mark tried his best to surprise me with this, and I was reaaaallyyyyy surprised -.- Okbyee, nak merajuk lah cenggini.

27/07/2012

100 FACTS ABOUT ME - PART II



#52. I'm curious about what Nachos really is and how does it taste like
#53. I like marshmallow
#54. Up until now, I'm still afraid of black cats because I think that they have some sort of connection with the supernatural thingy
#55. I always feel insecure. I wish I can just disappear
#55. I often talk to the star during the night whenever I miss someone. You can call me crazy or anything, but this is true.
#56. I can live without cellphone. At least for the time being.
#57. I like egg tarts
#58. Texting can make me smile, like seriously.
#59. I am faithful, so you can put all your trust in me :)
#60. I think girls in baju kurung are beautiful.
#61. I envy those with wavy hair
#62. I hate my hair right now. The barber from yesterday turned my hair into something crappy -.-
#63. I don’t have self-confidence
#64. Smoking makes me dizzy, so I don’t smoke at all.
#65. I’m afraid of my dad .
#66. I'll play with my hair whenever I get nervous or shy.
#66. I like to draw, but my drawing skill sucks.
#67. I used to own a diary.
#68. I can sing very well
#69. I can also dance gracefully
#70. I lied to you about facts #68 and #69.
#71. I’ve never won anything in lucky draw
#72. I like skinny jeans. I looked tall in it.
#73. Wall-E made me cry
#74. I am pathetic. But then, since letting others see our pathetic side is not ok, so I’m trying my best to hide it.
#75. I’m slightly addicted to futsal
#76. I hate being the center of attention.
#77. I keep on practicing diet even though I wanna get fat so badly.
#78. I like watermelon as well as its juicy juice.
#79. I like spaghetti
#80. I really like Tutti Frutti’s frozen yogurt.
#81. I do have regrets
#82. I had a very terrible experience with a gay stranger I met at a bus station not so long ago
#83. I like purple so very much
#84. I’m clumsy
#85. I don’t really like to be forced. Well, everyone doesn’t, right?
#86. I prefer to keep my problems to myself and not telling anyone.
#87. I can’t wiggle my ears without touching them
#88. I like to listen to one’s problem
#89. I just don't know how to comfort people
#90. I eat whenever I get bored
#91. I’m straight.
#92. Like most of the people, I used to hate smokers. But now, I realized that they have their own right as well, so I’m okay with them.
#93. Being trailed by salesperson during shopping makes me feel uneasy.
#94. I like KFC’s Strawberry Banana Yogurt
#95. I'm so in love with CHEESE
#96. I'm going to stop at #99
#97. I have a tendency to fall in love so easily with anyone who is kind to me. It happened to me around last year, and it was painful.
#98. Due to fact #97, I am now becoming more careful with girls ._.
#99. I need my bed. I’ll continue with the last fact later on :B

18/07/2012

FACT #15

I'll feel guilty each time people ask me for forgiveness

I really mean this, like seriously. Sumpah tak suka bila ada orang mintak maaf semua tuu. Each time orang mintak maaf je, I'll blame myself for that. Taktau lah kenapa. Mungkin sebab, I don't want anyone to feel guilty because of me, or just maybe because I don't really care if anyone does something wrong or bad to me. Or mungkin jugak sebab, I'm not that type yang mudah terasa O.o Entah lah. I just don't care.
Okbyee :3

I LOVE YOU - AVRIL LAVIGNE



"yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through, and that's why I love you"
Hi guys! :)

Haritu kan, haritu kan, I watched this movie kt tibi. Lupa laa nama cerita ni, sebab mcm panjang sangat :| Btw, the movie revolves around 3 characters, Marie, Alex and lagi sorang tu, erm. Entah, lupa nama dia. Evan kot -.- I don't really remember the introduction, but I think everything starts when Marie greets her old friend, Alex. And eventually, mereka jadi semakin rapat as time passes by. They always contact each other, share their pain, secrets and happiness. I can see how close they are. Alex tu, sikit pun tak expect yang mereka akan jadi serapat tu. Sebab Marie tu selalu ada masalah, Alex cuba sedaya upaya dia untuk tolong Marie. But then, Alex tahu yang dia tak mampu buat apa2 selain menjadi listener dia and bagi nasihat aje. Kadang2 tu, Alex salahkan diri dia sendiri jugak, sebab tak mampu buat apa2. And just maybe, disebabkan Marie tu selalu terluka and disakiti, Alex mula ambil berat kt Marie tu. At a point, he swears to himself yang dia akan cuba beri yang terbaik.

"I wanna protect you, and I wanna treat you well"


I guess ni lah kot janji Alex pada diri dia sendiri*lupa dah, huhu -.- Tak lama lepas tu, they get even closer with each other. Alex mula rasa ada something yang special dekat diri Marie tu. Dia sedar yang Marie tu mcm baik sgt. Besides that, dia dapat rasa yang Marie tu seorang yang ikhlas, lemah lembut and mcm2 lagi lah. And then, unexpectedly, Alex mula rasa sayang dekat Marie. Yep, that's it. Dia mula anggap Marie tu someone yang betul2 important dlm hidup dia. And I do think that dia tu betul2 jujur towards Marie. Alex tu kan, selalu happy sebab Marie selalu ada bila dia rasa kesunyian, rasa teruk, and so on. Sebab tu lah, he falls head over heels for Marie.

The climax. This is the part when everything goes so wonderful and wrong. I don't know whether he is plain stupid or what, because Alex buat something yang sy sendiri rasa dia tak patut buat. CONFESSION. Itu yang Alex buat. He tells Marie everything about his feeling. It sucks, but at least, dia jujur kan. And you know what, Marie pun confess jugak. It's heaven. She likes him as well. Yes, she does :DD So, what's next? Happy ever after? Oh, come on. The story is far from over yet. Mula2 tu, memang lah semuanya okay kan. Tp, everything gets comlicated as Marie asks Alex a favour. She asks him to stop waiting for her. Semuanya sebab she can't forget her past. I know how she feels. Marie betul2 tak dapat nak lupa kisah silam dia dengan si Evan tu. Her past keeps playing on her mind. Sy sebenarnya kesian gilaa dekat dia, tp nak buat mcm mana kan. Bukan semua yang kita harapkan akan berlaku. Hmm. I think Alex faham situasi Marie tu. He couldn't really accept it, but he tries his best to forget her. Malangnyaa, the more he tries, the worse it gets. Mungkin sebab dia terlalu sayangkan Marie, sampaikan dia rasa teruk. Pastu, ada sekali tu, Marie jatuh sakit. Bila Alex dapat tahu je pasal tu, dia betul2 rasa bersalah. And finally, dia buat this one big decision. Alex terjun bangunan. Pfft okay bukan. Dia jauhkan diri dari Marie tu, hoping that things will get better for both of them.

So, I guess that's how the story ends. Tak sempat nak tengok cerita tu sampai habis haritu, because I fell asleep -.-
Sobss. Sedihnyaaa, okbyee :<

27/06/2012

FACT #51

I'll turn really quiet in front of the one I like ._.

22/05/2012

100 FACTS ABOUT ME

Because I can't sleep even though I'm sleepy, so I decided to do this :DD

#1. I like cats.
#2. I can hardly get angry. Like seriously.
#3. I never had a special girlfriend before, and I don't care.
#4. I'm considerably tall and slim*pfft -.-
#5. I don't like to condemn others based on their appearance like I did before when I was a kid. Well, at least I've changed.
#6. I can stay awake for 2 days playing computer games. 
#7. I am secretive. This is true.
#8. I am charming*blinking
#9. I am too sensitive.
#10. I've never been in a fight
#11. I'm weak. Inside out.
#12. I don't like blue jeans
#13. I am lazy
#14. I hate goodbyes. 
#15. I'll feel guilty each time people ask me for forgiveness
#16. I won't hesitate to say sorry when needed.
#17. I like STAR :DD
#18. I'm not into politics. Everything is corrupted.
#19. I'm a bad driver.
#20. I hate making decisions on my own.
#21. I always listen to sad songs to comfort myself.
#22. I did confess to a girl I like before. And that was in the PAST.
#23. My vocab sucks.
#24. I can sleep 12 hours straight. Or more.
#25. I am shy, and I hate it.
#26. I'll turn quiet whenever I'm sad.
#27. I'm able to make a very weird popping sound using my lips. I am special :D
#28. I'm bad at guessing.
#29. I can't swim.
#30. I can't cook :(
#31. I like popcorn :/
#32. I like Pizza.
#33. I like to give and I don't prefer to take*if you get what I mean.
#34. I like hamsters :D
#35. Being an architect was my childhood ambition.
#36. For me, spiders are totally scary. Wicked -.-
#37. I often talk alone to myself. It's just another way for me to comfort myself.
#38. I don't really eat onions anymore.
#39. Selena Gomez, I adore youu :DD
#40. My intuitions are always wrong.
#41. I've been on a date before. Once? or maybe twice O.o
#42. When I was young, I had an imaginary friend called Ayah Kaki Panjang :O
#43. A girl's smile is the most wonderful thing.
#44. Staying inside an air-conditioned room for hours can make me feel sleepy.
#45. I don't have any goals in life.
#46. I always assume the worst without even asking.
#47. I can get fluttered easily
#48. My intuitions are always wrong.
#49. I can hardly get fat no matter how much I eat. It might be due to the metabolism thingy.
#50. I'm too tired. I'm going to stop here.

*sambung nanti lah, hihi. Okbye, nak mandi :D

11/05/2012

JET LAG - SIMPLE PLAN


You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart, is so jet-lagged :DD

18/04/2012

TOUCHED

Bila bercakap soal hati dan perasaan, mmg takkan ada penghujung punya. Tolong lah percaya. Kali ni je.

Hmm. Pagi td, around 4am*kot, sy singgah lah kt satu belog ni kan. Satu je, huhu. Erm. Lepas je follow tu, tiba2 terbaca lah latest post kt situ*tiba2, huhu -.- And tiba2 sy rasa sedih*tiba2 lagi -.- Rasa down gilaa. Idk the exact reason kenapa rasa mcm tu. Maybe I was just sympathetic, or maybe jugak sebab masalah dia tu mcm, quite related to mine :| Sebab sy betul2 tersentuh and rasa sedikit simpati, I left a comment there. I don't expect much pun. Cuma, harap2 dia akan rasa okay lah sikit lepas baca comment tu. Mungkin dia harap ada orang sudi jadi listener dia. So hey, I did listen, and I did extra by trying to comfort you, walaupun mcm sy cakap tu, I'm not good at comforting people at all. See, baik kan sy? :') Okay gurau je, sy bukannya buat mcm tu sebab nak impress others ke apa ke. I was moved by you, tu je yang sy boleh cakap :/ So, dear awk, semoga apa yang awk hajatkan tu, akan tercapai and problem awk tu settle lah nanti :)

Sekian. Nak sambung tidur jap. Wehee, baibai :DD

13/04/2012

IT'S FRIDAY, AGAIN.

Seminggu. Genap seminggu since last Friday. Seminggu since sy rasa betul2 penat. Seminggu since sy rasa serba salah. Seminggu since sy rasa berdebar. Seminggu since sy rasa happy :DD Seminggu since sy rasa sedih :( Seminggu since sy rasa sebak :/

It's last Friday, when my dad temankan sy pergi buat IC baru, driving licence baru, and passport baru. Hihi. Penat kot. Dari pagi sampai lah tengahari asyik pusing2 JPN tu. Kalau sy pun dah penat, inikan pulak my dad tu. Huhu sorry :/ Btw, the whole process of getting new IC tu sekejap sangat. Pergi kaunter, isi borang, pastu sengih2 depan kamera hehe-.- Cuma, I was quite pissed off dengan pakcik yang jaga kaunter tu. Susah sangat ke nak senyum, hah? Bukannya kena bayar pun. Siap dapat pahala lagi -_-' Pastu kan, yang masa nak buat passport tu mcm lawak sikit hihi. Kena pergi kt jabatan apa ntah. Masa isi borang tu, abang yang jaga kaunter tu tanya lah sy, "You da kahwin ke belum?" Pastu sy cakap lah tak kan. Then dia cakap lagi, kalau belum kahwin, kena bagitahu nama girlfriend. Tiba2 je. Pastu dia buat muka pelik. Sy mcm, HAHAHAHAHA. Tak bole berhenti gelak duhh masa tu xD And then, dipendekkan cerita, semua urusan selesai, Alhamdulillah :D

A rainy ending given to a perfect day. Tu je yang sy boleh cakap. Later that night, masa tu sy online lah mcm biasa kan. Then, dekat chat list tu, tiba2 sy nampak dia online. Dah lama gila dah tak contact dia sebenarnya, dlm 4 bulan mcm tu. Sy taktau lah kenapa kan, tp sy rasa berdebar. Seriously -.- And sy rasa terkejut gilaa bila dia tegur sy. Rasa nak nangehh huhu :/ I was left with two choices : Nak balas or endahkan je. I chose the first one, as I replied. It was akward, though. Yelah kan, bila kita dah lama tak contact someone tu, mmg akan ada rasa pelik sikit. The conversation went well, dalam sejam  mcm tu. Banyak yang ktorg bualkan masa tu, and I was glad to know that she's doing fine now :) Awk awk, tolong jaga diri baik2, eh? :D Sumpah, rindu tak terkata. Rasa sebak gilaa. Sy jadi emo jap mlm tu :| Sebenarnya banyak lagi yang sy nak bualkan, tp biar lah. Tiba2 teringat masa lampau, ktorg rapat sgt. Dia lah kawan sy yang betul2 faham isi hati sy. Dia lah kawan yang selalu buat sy rasa happy. Dia lah kawan yang selalu ada bila sy rasa teruk or keseorangan. Tp, tu semua dah lepas. Now, we are drifting away from each other. I know it's for the best. Cuma, sy nak sangat teman dia dalam susah dan senang, mcm dulu2 and  jadi listener dia bila diperlukan :/

Hmmm. Kbyee, nak pergi lap air mata huhu -.-
:<

09/04/2012

TO-DO LIST

I was thinking about things that I can spend my time on during this horribly long semester break, and I came up with this short list -.- :D

1) Computer games. Yeah, this will always be on top. ALWAYS.
2) Movie marathon at the cinema. I wish I could. Oh yes, I could! Driving licence pun da ada ni :D
3) Novels and books. I don't really like to read, so.. hm -.-
4) Tv. Dad, pay the Astro bill first la! :/
5) Belog. Hehe :D
6) Futsal wuwuwu.
7) Work. What? Only god knows how lazy I am :>

There you go. Ada tujuh semuanyaa. Sikit je choices yang ada. Apa2 pun, rasanya I'll spend my time mostly on computer games lah kot. Sebab best and seronok :D Cuma, sedikit boring lah bila takde orang nak main sama2 sobss :/ Hmm, okay lah, okay lah. Nak paksa diri membaca lah lepas ni. Seriously, my english vocab is getting worse sebab da lama tak membaca-.- So, novel would be a good choice, I guess.

Btw, I didn't mention pun about 'Online' in the list kan? Hihi. Lupa pulak. Penting tu, penting. Tak ape lah. Okbyee :D

06/04/2012

STOP JUDGING

Assalamualaikum, and hai :D

Berbalik kepada tajuk di atas, sy rasa semua orang pernah randomly judge orang lain sesuka hati kan? Kalau cakap tak pernah tu, mmg nampak sgt lah tipu kan :P Sebenarnya, sy pun mcm selalu judge orang lain tanpa kenal mereka dulu. Like seriously.

Mcm semalam tu. Hajatnya nak wish birthday aje. Since kelmarin lagi nak wish, tp takut ._. I thought dia tu jenis yang mcm pendiam and garang kan. Sebab, entah lah. I just thought so. Then, sy cuba beranikan diri, pastu pergi wish. Rasa mcm, cuak gilaa kot. Dah lah wish lambat kan. Haha. Mcm nak gugur aje jantung ni haa -.- But then, sy terkejut gilaa. Rupa-rupanya, dia ni bukan lah mcm yang sy expect tu. Baik je padahal haha. Siap bergurau-senda lagi :P

So there, pengalaman mematangkan diri. Lepas ni sy taknak judge orang sesuka hati dahh. Neither should you :D

03/04/2012

PEMILIK HATI

Hai awok semuaaa :3

Sedikit coretan sebelum melelapkan mata. Hihi. Actually kan, cuti sekolah yang panjang da start dah pun, and sy tersangat lah bored kt rumah ni -.- Bila wallet beserta lesen kereta hilang, apa pun tak bole :/ Yang menjadi persoalannya, mcm mana lah agaknya wallet tu tiba2 bole hilang. Rasa macam, woaaahhhhhhh :O

Apa2 pun, sy paling tak suka bila kena duduk goyang kaki cenggini. Sebab nanti, banyak sangat benda yang akan bermain dalam benak fikiran. Huhu. Contohnya, nanti mula lah teringat balik kisah2 lampau yang tragis and sangat menyedihkan. Okay lah, takmau ingat dahh pasal ni huhu. Takut nanti sy nangehh zz -.- :/ So, sebab tu lah sy isi masa lapang sy dengan bermain game sambil dengar lagu sambil menyanyi sekali hihi -.-' Tolong jangan salahkan sy kalau2 hujan tak berhenti turun nanti.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel, like you're less than fucking perfect. Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me :DD *Best pulak lagu ni.


Hmm, dah lah. Sy rasa mengantuk pulak -.- Kbyee, jaga diri :)


09/03/2012

LIFE AND DEATH

Sy selalu terfikir, apa akan terjadi bila sampai ajal? I mean, kita tak boleh ubah takdir kan? Kalau dah ditentukan kita akan pergi suatu hari nanti, kita memang tak boleh tangguhkan saat tu kan? Sebab itu semua kuasa Tuhan yang satu.
Sebab tu lah, last week, sy tak consume pun ubat yang doctor tu kasi. Pahit tu memang lah, nama pun ubat kan. But that's not the main reason kenapa sy tak consume ubat tu. Sy dah redha je sebenarnya, serahkan semuanya pada takdir. Kalau umur still panjang, Alhamdulillah laa. Kalau tak, apa boleh buat, kan? :3 Lagipun, who cares? Bukannya ada orang kisah pun pasal sy. HAHA -.-'
Tp takpe lah. I guess there won't be any further complication.
Kbyee :)

18/02/2012

ADVICE #4 - APPRECIATE

Hihi :'>

"Cherish those you love as much as you can while they're still there. Just show how much you care and how much you love them. Or else, you'll surely be filled with regrets when they're gone someday. And once that happens, you'll realize that it's already too late then."

Okay, I don't know whether this is true or not. But for me, kita memang patut hargai mereka sebaik mungkin even though mereka akan pergi jugak dari hidup kita suatu hari nanti. But at least, kita dah buat yang terbaik, kan? :)

Hihi. Kbyee :D


BINTANG MALAM

15 Oct 2011, around midnight. Guna kamera phone je, so gambar tak seberapa -.-



Tadi, sy belek2 phone sebab sy bosan sgt cuti taktau nak buat apa -.- Lepastu, sy ternampak gambar ni kt dlm gallery, mengingatkan sy pada tahun lepas, 15 Oct 2011. First time pergi Tutti Frutti wuwuwu. Sepanjang mlm tu, sy rasa happy sangat2 :DD Then, masa balik tu, da kira lewat malam lah jugak. Around 12am mcm tu, I guess. Then, sy pandang atas.

Sy terpaku.

Sumpah cakap, itu first time sy nampak  bintang yang terang sampai mcm tu sekali. Rasa terkejut ada, rasa terpegun pun ada. Tapi, sy tahu kenapa bintang tu nampak terang sangat malam tu. Sebab, erm. Sy jatuhkan sudu masa tengah makan kt Tutti Frutti -.- Okay bukan, tipu aje lah.

Entry ni pelik. Byee.

22/01/2012

ADVICE #3 - VANISH

Sy suka melukis :D
"If you think your presence in one's life brings sadness instead of happiness, that's when you have to leave. Please, be more considerate about others."

Ingat pesan sy ni baik2 eh. Walau pahit mcm mana sekalipun, terpaksa lah pergi. Takpe lah kalau kita yang tersiksa. Asalkan jangan sakiti mereka yang kita betul2 sayang :)
Hihi okbyee :3

KUCING ;(

rasa mcm nak tarik misai dia :'(


Mlm tu, sy pergi kt satu kedai makan ni kann. Masa tunggu order sampai, sy main2 lah dulu dengan anak kucing ni. Comel sangat. Plus, kucing tu manja gilaa kot. Dia main golek2 atas riba sy, pastu tidur kt situ sobss. Rasa mcm nak culik aje kucing tu, pastu bawa balik rumah ishh -.-

Btw, tu jam purple baru sy hihi. Cuba tengok shape dia, bentuk bintang lah kan yeayy :DD Pastu kan, pastu kan, haritu sy beli gelang tu hehe*selok -.- Cuba tengok tu. Purple does blend well with pink, kan? :3

P/s: For some reason, sy akan jadi sedikit sensitif bila teringat pasal kucing. Jangan tanya kenapa :/

20/01/2012

ADVICE #2 - SHARE THE PAIN



"Don't hide your pain from the one who cares about you. Cause gradually, the pain will become even worse. We are made to complete each other. So, don't hesitate to share the pain. Remember, there is someone out there who dreams of your smile."
okbyee :)

15/01/2012

TAGGING GAME

Wuwuwu, ada orang tag sy lah. Eyraa namanya :D

THE RULES

  • You must post this Rules in your ENTRY
  • Each person must post about themselves in their JURNAL
  • Answer the question that tagger set for you in their post. And Create 11new questions for new people you tagged for new answer 
  • You have to choose 11 to tag link them on the post
  • Go to their PAGE and tell them you have tag HIM/HER
  • NO TAG BACK !
  • No stuff in Tagging Section "You Are tagged If You Reading This"
  • "You are LEGITIMATELY" - a.k.a TRUST , WITH ALL HONEST , Have tag 11 people

ABOUT ME
  • Jahat
  • Tidak baik
  • Sangat jahat
  • Amat tidak baik

Erm. Okay, ini soalan dia. Lagi susah dari soalan test math haritu, sy rasa ._.

#1. Single or taken?
- Alamak. Perlu ke jawab? -.- Hmm, taken single laa.

#2. Two favorite foods.
- Nasi goreng Pattaya tanpa bawang, Nasi goreng USA :((

#3. Two favorite movies
- Enchanted, Don't Be Afraid of the Dark :((

#4. Two names of your childhood friends.
- Azwan, Asyraf*lupa -.-

#5. Do you want to travel to Paris or Korea?
- Paris, of course. Nak panjat Eiffel Tower >:D

#6. Prefer cycling or hiking?
- I don't prefer both.

#7. Suka warna PINK tak?
- Suka, sebab nak dekat2 dgn warna purple :3

#8. Apa PHONE idaman KORANG?
- Tiada hihi.

#9. KATY PERRY ? AVRIL LAVIGNE or CHRISTINA PERRI? Choose one.
- Avril :D

#10. DAH ada lesen apa?
- Kereta or motor? Kereta JE.

#11. Blog eyraaa acane? COMMENT?
- Blog anda comel okbyee :)

Erm, rules tu cakap, kena tag belog orang lain pulak eh? Kiki. Sorry, sy rasa mengantuk lah. Kalau taknak tag, boleh? :3
Kiki okbyee :D

07/01/2012

ADVICE #1 - SACRIFICE

I drew this myself. Comel kan? :D

This happens to us. All of us*kot

"Sometimes, you have to hide your feeling towards that person even though you are ready to give your heart to him/her. It's okay, you can still love him/her as a friend, right? I know it hurts, but if you truly love someone, you have to sacrifice. Yes, you have to."

P/s: Jangan lah bersedih bila ini berlaku pada kita. Senyum2 selalu eh, okbyee :)

06/01/2012

WALL-E

Manis :D




I did, not a long time ago, imagine myself as Wall-E. He did everything he could on his own, showing how much he cares towards the world he lived in. He also gave everything he had, just to make things better. And finally, he found Eve. From that point, he started to pursue her and tried his best just to grow in Eve's eyes. Cause he knew she's the right one for him. In the entire movie, we could see clearly how special she is in Wall-E's eyes. The way he looked at Eve, it's just too obvious, right? It seems like, she means the world to him.


So, go on. Try and put yourself in his shoes. Then, ask yourself. What would you do if you were him? Would you do exactly the same things like he did back then? Dear readers, I think you should. That's our purposes in life. That's why God created us. To fulfil our destiny. Do the right things and the rest, just leave it to God. He knows what's best for us. And once you meet your Eve, that's when you should feel really grateful. Appreciate her and let her know that you need her more than anything else in this world.


Btw, the movie made me cry -.- I know your reaction must be like, what. the. eff. But really, if you watch the movie and imagine yourself as Wall-E, you might get the same feeling as well.


P/s: You don't have to find your Eve. Just live your life the way it is. Cause one day, when the right time comes, she will appear right in front of you (:


Okbyee :D

2012

Hello :D

Eh, da 2012 rupanya. I hope it's not too late for me to wish

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! :DD

Azam tahun baru ni, nak jadi lebih baik dari tahun lepas*setiap tahun azam sama je pfft -.-

Btw, malam semalam kan, langit cerah sgt. So, semalam tu nampak banyak bintang. Suprisingly, ada satu bintang tu kan, terang sangat. Sampaikan sy tersenyum sendirian :')

Sebab sy rasa sy busy sikit skrg ni, so entry ni pendek aje. Hihi okbyee :3