WELCOME BACK SYAWAL :D

Hai hai, Selamat Hari Raya :)

I know it's a little too late, tapi nak jugak berpantun sikit. Hihik.

Anak kucing makan ikan,

Ikan masin x terperi,

Salah silap harap dimaafkan,

Semoga brgembira di Aidilfitri! 

Labah-labah pergi bersiar,

Bersiar seorang diri saje, 

Esok tiba hari raya,

Tutti frutti bila nak belanja?

Enak sungguh tutti frutti,

Tak sabar ada org nk belanja nanti.

Tahun lepas punya pantun -.- Saya curi pantun orang ni sebenarnya, sorry. Tapi takpe lah kot, haritu masa raya pertama dah mintak maaf hihi -.- Eh tapi pantun last tu mcm takde kaitan pun dengan hari raya O.o

Btw, raya ni kan rasa takde semangat je. Taktau kenapa hmmm ._. Tapi kalau semangat sikit pun masa dapat duit raya je hehe.

Sy ni mmg gila sikit dengan purple. Silakan menyampah -.-

Okbyee :)

HOPE AND REALITY

hope Pronunciation: /həʊp/

• a feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen

reality Pronunciation: /rɪˈalɪti/

• the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them

*definition from oxforddictionaries.com.

Well, hope is actually a sort of expectation and it's not wrong at all for all of us to have expectations. Having expectations is always okay until you have to face reality.

The thing is, reality can be painful sometimes. It makes our hopes seem so unrealistic and pointless. That's why those who have high expectations will most likely suffer more compared to those who don't. Well, that's what life really is. You can't escape that. You just can't.

I was one of them. I did hope for something unrealistic because I thought it was okay to do so. Because I was so stupid. Because I was so stubborn. Everything seemed so real until the painful reality dragged me down. It didn't happen once and it didn't happen twice either. It happened so many times. Yet, I can't seem to stop from having expectation because it's not my choice but my heart's. I don't really mind because I know I'm going to get hurt in the end anyway.

In conclusion, hope and reality can never be separated, am I right? :)

FACTS ABOUT ME - PART III

Trust me or not, I'm doing this again because I have too much time to be wasted -.-

#101. I'm going to skip fact #100 and save it for later.

#102. I tend to get depressed easily if I don't get enough sleep.

#103. Surprisingly, I am not addicted to computer games anymore.

#104. My general knowledge is really bad. If I were sitting for general knowledge test, I'd probably score below than 20 or maybe 10 out of 100

#105. My head will get itchy whenever I eat spicy food.

#106. I do act childish sometimes and I hate it.

#107. I can always make time for those who are dear to me

#108. I'm not easy to get along with.

#109. I hate ginger. It tastes like yuck D:

#110. I prefer to tuck my shoelaces inside the socks or shoes instead of tying them.

#111. I enjoy the smell of gasoline.

#112. When I was a kid, the theme song from the movie X-Files really freaked me out. Until now, the song still brings chill down my spine

#113. I can lick my left elbow but not my right one. I don't know how to explain this.

#114. I love talking about human relationship. But then, I always end up listening most of the time instead of talking about it.

#115. I prefer shopping alone rather than going with my dad because I won't get to buy things I want whenever he's around

#116. I've stopped my bad habit of biting straws since it's pretty disgusting.

#117. I can now play guitar after two weeks of practice and I love it

#118. Since my parents do not allow me to buy or even play guitar, my friend lend me one and I have it hidden inside my closet. I can only play whenever they're not around, but that's more than enough I guess. Hehe.

#119. I'm a bad son for sure. Sorry mom, sorry dad.

#120. I hate taking medicine whenever I fall sick.

#121. I can be friendly to anyone if I put my mind to it.

#122. I don't usually greet others first and wait for them to make the first move instead since I'm afraid that they might feel annoyed and uncomfortable.

#123. I've never suffered muscle cramp in my entire life.

#124. I prefer not to comb my hair and leave them messy instead.

#125. I like to play with my hair. They are soft and silk. pfft.

#126. I've never ridden a roller coaster before.

#127. I still don't understand the exact reason why lovers fight and hurt each other. Is it that hard to actually maintain a good relationship and love each other without the need to hurt back? Can't they just forgive and forget?

#128. I wanna visit Paris so badly.

#129. I hate Justin Bieber, not because of his personality or songs, but hmm. Nevermind -.-"

#130. I'm not afraid of the dark.

#131. I've began to adore Selena when I saw her as the main character in the movie Another Cinderella Story two years ago.

#132. I am fat. Nope

#133. I am getting fatter as time passes by. Nope

#134. I don't like McD's Apple Pie.

#135. I've never proposed to anyone before largely because I am too afraid of being rejected.

#136. I have a close relationship with vampire since I usually sleep during the day and stay awake at night

#137. I have a huge collection of Selena's photos kept inside a folder on my laptop. Hehe.

#138. I'm not comfortable being in public because I feel like everybody's staring at me. It's dejecting somehow.

#139. Being able to cheer up those who are in pain makes me feel contented.

#140. I can be overprotective and I know it's annoying. It's just that I hate seeing those who are dear to me get hurt.

#141. I can't tolerate those who spread chained messages. If the messages were real, I'd be long dead by now

#142. I've been rooting for Chelsea since 2006.

#143. I always have unrealistic and high expectations.

#144. Honestly, I hate getting myself a haircut but at the same time, I don't like having long hair :|

#145. I've never been to Burger King, Nando's, Wendy's and Subway*sobbing

#146. I know this is a bit disgusting but I could blow bubbles off my tongue.

#147. I can even squirt saliva from underneath my tongue. I mean, sometimes.

#148. I have dimples.

#149. I trust people around me too easily.

#150. I can't stand the cold.

Yeay, done with the facts. Need some sleep now, night!

I WISH IT WASN'T REAL

It's typical Tuesday, I guess. Except that I haven't slept since yesterday. Am I being abnormal? I wish I could just fall asleep right after I lay myself in my bed, which I know won't be happening that way. I know clearly what's going to happen if I try to sleep. Random thoughts will suddenly pop up out of nowhere, keeping me busy enough from falling asleep. This overthinking stuff is really tiring T.T

Anyway, I was involved in a road accident few days ago with this one fellow motorcyclist. It was kinda bad, but you should know that I'm just perfectly fine since I am now sitting here in my room, blogging early in the morning.

I suddenly realized few things after the accident, which are;

i) I am selfish

ii) I can't think clearly whenever I'm nervous

iii) I'm easy to be cheated

Clearly, I was feeling kinda low to actually realize that I can be selfish, sometimes. Should I actually tell this? As soon after the crash, the first thing that came across my mind was "how's my car's condition? is it bad?" instead of "How is that guy's condition? is he okay?". That was a total crap, you know. What on earth was going on with me? I don't know why, maybe I was just too nervous and afraid that my dad will find out and throw tantrums even though it was clearly not my fault. It was totally that guy's fault. So that's when I decided to keep my mouth shut. Luckily he was fine, so we settled down quietly and nicely even though that guy cheated me by asking few extra bucks for the compensation. Yet, I still let him off that time since my feelings were all mixed up, thinking how cruel I can be, putting myself first while having less concern about others who are in pain :|

So everything's written up there. I must get rid of them as soon as I can. This is not as easy as handling bad habits, but I'll still try. I have to.

I'm done here. I need my sleep.