I WISH IT WASN'T REAL

It's typical Tuesday, I guess. Except that I haven't slept since yesterday. Am I being abnormal? I wish I could just fall asleep right after I lay myself in my bed, which I know won't be happening that way. I know clearly what's going to happen if I try to sleep. Random thoughts will suddenly pop up out of nowhere, keeping me busy enough from falling asleep. This overthinking stuff is really tiring T.T

Anyway, I was involved in a road accident few days ago with this one fellow motorcyclist. It was kinda bad, but you should know that I'm just perfectly fine since I am now sitting here in my room, blogging early in the morning.

I suddenly realized few things after the accident, which are;

i) I am selfish

ii) I can't think clearly whenever I'm nervous

iii) I'm easy to be cheated

Clearly, I was feeling kinda low to actually realize that I can be selfish, sometimes. Should I actually tell this? As soon after the crash, the first thing that came across my mind was "how's my car's condition? is it bad?" instead of "How is that guy's condition? is he okay?". That was a total crap, you know. What on earth was going on with me? I don't know why, maybe I was just too nervous and afraid that my dad will find out and throw tantrums even though it was clearly not my fault. It was totally that guy's fault. So that's when I decided to keep my mouth shut. Luckily he was fine, so we settled down quietly and nicely even though that guy cheated me by asking few extra bucks for the compensation. Yet, I still let him off that time since my feelings were all mixed up, thinking how cruel I can be, putting myself first while having less concern about others who are in pain :|

So everything's written up there. I must get rid of them as soon as I can. This is not as easy as handling bad habits, but I'll still try. I have to.

I'm done here. I need my sleep.

100 FACTS ABOUT ME - PART II

#52. I'm curious about what Nachos really is and how does it taste like

#53. I like marshmallow

#54. Up until now, I'm still afraid of black cats because I think that they have some sort of connection with the supernatural thingy

#55. I always feel insecure. I wish I can just disappear

#55. I often talk to the star during the night whenever I miss someone. You can call me crazy or anything, but this is true.

#56. I can live without cellphone. At least for the time being.

#57. I like egg tarts

#58. Texting can make me smile, like seriously.

#59. I am faithful, so you can put all your trust in me :)

#60. I think girls in baju kurung are beautiful.

#61. I envy those with wavy hair

#62. I hate my hair right now. The barber from yesterday turned my hair into something crappy -.-

#63. I don’t have self-confidence

#64. Smoking makes me dizzy, so I don’t smoke at all.

#65. I’m afraid of my dad .

#66. I'll play with my hair whenever I get nervous or shy.

#66. I like to draw, but my drawing skill sucks.

#67. I used to own a diary.

#68. I can sing very well

#69. I can also dance gracefully

#70. I lied to you about facts #68 and #69.

#71. I’ve never won anything in lucky draw

#72. I like skinny jeans. I looked tall in it.

#73. Wall-E made me cry

#74. I am pathetic. But then, since letting others see our pathetic side is not ok, so I’m trying my best to hide it.

#75. I’m slightly addicted to futsal

#76. I hate being the center of attention.

#77. I keep on practicing diet even though I wanna get fat so badly.

#78. I like watermelon as well as its juicy juice.

#79. I like spaghetti

#80. I really like Tutti Frutti’s frozen yogurt.

#81. I do have regrets

#82. I had a very terrible experience with a gay stranger I met at a bus station not so long ago

#83. I like purple so very much

#84. I’m clumsy

#85. I don’t really like to be forced. Well, everyone doesn’t, right?

#86. I prefer to keep my problems to myself and not telling anyone.

#87. I can’t wiggle my ears without touching them

#88. I like to listen to one’s problem

#89. I just don't know how to comfort people

#90. I eat whenever I get bored

#91. I’m straight.

#92. Like most of the people, I used to hate smokers. But now, I realized that they have their own right as well, so I’m okay with them.

#93. Being trailed by salesperson during shopping makes me feel uneasy.

#94. I like KFC’s Strawberry Banana Yogurt

#95. I'm so in love with CHEESE

#96. I'm going to stop at #99

#97. I have a tendency to fall in love so easily with anyone who is kind to me. It happened to me around last year, and it was painful.

#98. Due to fact #97, I am now becoming more careful with girls ._.

#99. I need my bed. I’ll continue with the last fact later on :B

FACT #15

I'll feel guilty each time people ask me for forgiveness

I really mean this, like seriously. Sumpah tak suka bila ada orang mintak maaf semua tuu. Each time orang mintak maaf je, I'll blame myself for that. Taktau lah kenapa. Mungkin sebab, I don't want anyone to feel guilty because of me, or just maybe because I don't really care if anyone does something wrong or bad to me. Or mungkin jugak sebab, I'm not that type yang mudah terasa O.o Entah lah. I just don't care.

Okbyee :3

FACT #51

I'll turn really quiet in front of the one I like ._.

100 FACTS ABOUT ME

Because I can't sleep even though I'm sleepy, so I decided to do this :DD

#1. I like cats.

#2. I can hardly get angry. Like seriously.

#3. I never had a special girlfriend before, and I don't care.

#4. I'm considerably tall and slim*pfft -.-

#5. I don't like to condemn others based on their appearance like I did before when I was a kid. Well, at least I've changed.

#6. I can stay awake for 2 days playing computer games. 

#7. I am secretive. This is true.

#8. I am charming*blinking

#9. I am too sensitive.

#10. I've never been in a fight

#11. I'm weak. Inside out.

#12. I don't like blue jeans

#13. I am lazy

#14. I hate goodbyes. 

#15. I'll feel guilty each time people ask me for forgiveness

#16. I won't hesitate to say sorry when needed.

#17. I like STAR :DD

#18. I'm not into politics. Everything is corrupted.

#19. I'm a bad driver.

#20. I hate making decisions on my own.

#21. I always listen to sad songs to comfort myself.

#22. I did confess to a girl I like before. And that was in the PAST.

#23. My vocab sucks.

#24. I can sleep 12 hours straight. Or more.

#25. I am shy, and I hate it.

#26. I'll turn quiet whenever I'm sad.

#27. I'm able to make a very weird popping sound using my lips. I am special :D

#28. I'm bad at guessing.

#29. I can't swim.

#30. I can't cook :(

#31. I like popcorn :/

#32. I like Pizza.

#33. I like to give and I don't prefer to take*if you get what I mean.

#34. I like hamsters :D

#35. Being an architect was my childhood ambition.

#36. For me, spiders are totally scary. Wicked -.-

#37. I often talk alone to myself. It's just another way for me to comfort myself.

#38. I don't really eat onions anymore.

#39. Selena Gomez, I adore youu :DD

#40. My intuitions are always wrong.

#41. I've been on a date before. Once? or maybe twice O.o

#42. When I was young, I had an imaginary friend called Ayah Kaki Panjang :O

#43. A girl's smile is the most wonderful thing.

#44. Staying inside an air-conditioned room for hours can make me feel sleepy.

#45. I don't have any goals in life.

#46. I always assume the worst without even asking.

#47. I can get fluttered easily

#48. My intuitions are always wrong.

#49. I can hardly get fat no matter how much I eat. It might be due to the metabolism thingy.

#50. I'm too tired. I'm going to stop here.

*sambung nanti lah, hihi. Okbye, nak mandi :D

JET LAG - SIMPLE PLAN

You say good morning

When it's midnight

Going out of my head

Alone in this bed

I wake up to your sunset

And it's driving me mad

I miss you so bad

And my heart, heart, heart, is so jet-lagged :DD